Hi to all beautiful souls in this group

My name is Jisa and my husband, Jubin and we are desperately seeking help from a beautiful soul to bring a miraculous life into this beautiful world. I have thought long and hard about how and what to write in this post to get picked, noticed or even have it read and I keep coming back to the fact that I won’t get this post right, as there is no right or easy way to say we need your help. We know it’s a huge ask and a huge thing to give. I am here with nowhere and no one to ask for. That in fact we hope with everything that we have HOPE that there is someone out there who can help us to make the impossible, possible.

The hope, that a selfless soul reading our desperate situation might feel to contact us one day, is the energy that making me and my husband to live each second. This journey of realizing the fact that I would never be able to carry a baby within me breaks me each second. I blame myself and if it wasn't for my amazing husband, I don't think I would've coped to the reality. Here we are still trying for our rainbow. The only word I can guarantee is that you will have a great sister and brother for the rest of your life.

A short bio about us. My husband and I are 32 and 31 year old and we are in relationship and married since 2016. I am a Registered Nurse by profession and Jubin is a Bus operator. We were in heaven with so much of happiness , when I got pregnant with my first baby in 2019 August. We planned and dreamed for our bundle of joy. We can never foresee anything what lies in front of us. I had severe pain during December which eventually got worse and Doctors couldn't rule out anything during those 15 days of hospitalization. In January 2020, I had a sudden water break at 18 weeks of pregnancy and I lost my pretty baby girl on 17th Jan 2020. Initially diagnosed as miscarriage due to urinary tract infection. On top of that grief, I had an Incision and Drainage to remove leftover placenta and unfortunately during that procedure, the infection got widely spread. I was on continuous IV antibiotics for a month, but despite that I went into septic shock. In order to save my life, they had to take me for surgery and ended up having hysterectomy. The decision was taken just within minutes as there was no other way to save my life. Still I don't know how I lived those days and still in the shock of realising that I can never carry a baby in my life. Most of the time, I feel like I shouldn't have come out of the surgery alive. Only thing that make me to live life is my husband's love and care. He never cried in front of me but I burst out with tears when I see him holding back his emotions and brooding over our future. When he cuddle babies, I can’t withhold my tears. The only hope left for us is to find a selfless soul who could carry a baby of our own. The selfless world of surrogacy- when we get into something, we know the real value of a kind human. I have ovaries left in me. I believe and pray that God will prepare an angel womb for us to bring a miracle into this beautiful world. It’s worth living with a hope.
We know it’s not going to be a easy process for us and it could possibly turn out to nothing but you don't know till you try!! We are approved by fertility plus, Auckland for gestational surrogacy and we are ready to travel anywhere in NZ to meet our angel.
Being infertile is such a lonely and soul-destroying path, but when a selfless soul says that they would carry someone else’s child out of the goodness of their heart, it really does lighten my heart and restore my faith in the universe. ❤
Whatever your reason for being a part of this community thank you for making me feel like I’m not alone in this. “There is nothing more beautiful than someone who goes out of their way to make life beautiful for others.” We believe difficult roads always lead to beautiful destination!
If you would love to know more about us, please we would love to talk. You can contact us anytime @0224721494/jisasinta@gmail.com

Thanks heaps to read this .A ray of hope in this beautiful New Year!!!